Name:
xia0hu
俊瑞
Date of Birth:
22nd February 1988
Schools Been To:
Boon Lay Garden Primary
Music Concerto Music School
Dunearn Secondary
Ocean Butterflies Musicology
Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Ossia Muic School
Wants:
Her.
Guitar
Keyboard
Necklace
Bike 2A Licence
Car License
Small Fridge
Vertical Iron
Good Quality Recorder
Small Sofa
Hates:
Liars
Being Forced
HeartBreaks
People Leaving
Backstabbers
Flirts
Imature People
Proud People
Etc..
Hopes:
Someone Who Can Pull Me Up When
I'm Down, SomeOne Who Could Give
Me Strength When I'm Down. SomeOne
Can Guide Me Through When I'm Lost
Someone Someone... The Last One
but everythingmeans nothing.
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Monday, August 30, 2010
Part II
Hmm... Let Me Share a Short Story (To Someone : Dun Steal My Story And Tell It To Other Girl La ! lOL .) Once there was this young man, who loves to travel around, going everywhere taking pictures of scenery, beautiful places and meaningful things. He used to have no worries at all, life was so carefree. He did what he wants as long as he have his camera around with him, he would feel secured. But One day, he lost his eyesight suddenly. His whole world turn dark. Moving Cars , Pictures And Building. He See Nothing At All. He was so Scare, So worried. Thinking that just yesterday, he could see everything. And Now, his whole life had changed. At First he tried to attempt suicide but he failed, simply because he cant let go of the beautiful things that he had seen during the past, Life was too beautiful during that time. But now, he can no longer do all these. He had no choice but to give up on this "life " of his. During the first few months, life was meaningless, all he did was eat slp and nothing much. He felt that without his eyesight, he cannot accomplished anithing animore so he could do is to waste his life away.
Sometimes, His Friend Would Asked him : " Why arent you moving on with your life, life isnt just about seeing things isnt it ? even if you;ve lost your vision but still u still can hear, you should try to make a better use of yourself and live your live to the fullest !" He refused to listen, He just keep on complaining in his heart "Why ! why Must it happen to me. God, Why is it so unfair?"
And until one day, god asked him : " What would you want ? Your Eyes Or Eyes. " Immediately, He Chosen his eyes. So, God granted his wish. He return his eyesight back to him but at the same time, he could no longer hear things. But As he is, He dun seem to care, he is fine as he would have his eyesight and his life back. This would be his upmost pirority.
He thought life would once return to normal again. But In fact, Its the opposite. He Can only see things going on around him , things that is onli the look in the surface even with pictures, its doesnt seem as colorful as it would be anymore. Why ? This is because All those beautiful sceneries or picture taken from his heart. On how he feel, And For us, The onli way to feel is to listen to people n not looking at what they are. Thus, This Man is one of the few who could not understand the true meaning of feeling.
Alright, Tis story is to tell us that, even though we may assume that these are the things that we want and always wanted it. And We dont wanna change anything for it. This because we scare that we might not be used to the new life or style. And for us human, not alot of people could accept changes, changes would mean requiring people to adapt to the new life once again. But There is one saying that changes are always for the good. Even if the first try is bad, you know it, and you will try to change for the better again. But If we dun try to change or overcome this fear inside of us, we would never be able to move forward And also resultng us in losing something important which can never be able to get it back anymore. hahahahha.... crap story isnt it, the morale of story is , Sometimes, we cant simply keep staying inside our comfort zone and refuse to change, who know this time the changes would be for the better ? you may not know, And after you know it, you've already lost it.
Hmm... Let Me Share a Short Story (To Someone : Dun Steal My Story And Tell It To Other Girl La ! lOL .) Once there was this young man, who loves to travel around, going everywhere taking pictures of scenery, beautiful places and meaningful things. He used to have no worries at all, life was so carefree. He did what he wants as long as he have his camera around with him, he would feel secured. But One day, he lost his eyesight suddenly. His whole world turn dark. Moving Cars , Pictures And Building. He See Nothing At All. He was so Scare, So worried. Thinking that just yesterday, he could see everything. And Now, his whole life had changed. At First he tried to attempt suicide but he failed, simply because he cant let go of the beautiful things that he had seen during the past, Life was too beautiful during that time. But now, he can no longer do all these. He had no choice but to give up on this "life " of his. During the first few months, life was meaningless, all he did was eat slp and nothing much. He felt that without his eyesight, he cannot accomplished anithing animore so he could do is to waste his life away.
Sometimes, His Friend Would Asked him : " Why arent you moving on with your life, life isnt just about seeing things isnt it ? even if you;ve lost your vision but still u still can hear, you should try to make a better use of yourself and live your live to the fullest !" He refused to listen, He just keep on complaining in his heart "Why ! why Must it happen to me. God, Why is it so unfair?"
And until one day, god asked him : " What would you want ? Your Eyes Or Eyes. " Immediately, He Chosen his eyes. So, God granted his wish. He return his eyesight back to him but at the same time, he could no longer hear things. But As he is, He dun seem to care, he is fine as he would have his eyesight and his life back. This would be his upmost pirority.
He thought life would once return to normal again. But In fact, Its the opposite. He Can only see things going on around him , things that is onli the look in the surface even with pictures, its doesnt seem as colorful as it would be anymore. Why ? This is because All those beautiful sceneries or picture taken from his heart. On how he feel, And For us, The onli way to feel is to listen to people n not looking at what they are. Thus, This Man is one of the few who could not understand the true meaning of feeling.
Alright, Tis story is to tell us that, even though we may assume that these are the things that we want and always wanted it. And We dont wanna change anything for it. This because we scare that we might not be used to the new life or style. And for us human, not alot of people could accept changes, changes would mean requiring people to adapt to the new life once again. But There is one saying that changes are always for the good. Even if the first try is bad, you know it, and you will try to change for the better again. But If we dun try to change or overcome this fear inside of us, we would never be able to move forward And also resultng us in losing something important which can never be able to get it back anymore. hahahahha.... crap story isnt it, the morale of story is , Sometimes, we cant simply keep staying inside our comfort zone and refuse to change, who know this time the changes would be for the better ? you may not know, And after you know it, you've already lost it.
~ lol doesnt mean that i'm happy, sometimes its just not to show out to people how i really feel
~ WE human Always Regret After Losing It, Why Cant We Cherish It In The First Place?
~ WE human Always Regret After Losing It, Why Cant We Cherish It In The First Place?
J S
if i ain't got you|10:40 PM
What You Wanna Be ?
Ever since the evolution ( Changes) i went through, from 2007 till now, Yes I've changed alot. 3 years ago, i was a boy who knew nothing, always believed or trying to use my so called "little brightness" (xiao Cong Ming) to help myself to go though all the problems i've encountered. During that time, i used to believe that with this little brightness in me i can do better than others. I never knew how cruel, tough and straightforward the society could be. During that time i always believe that things eventually work out by itself, what's there to worry about ?
But ever since "that " incident happens, all good life suddenly came to an end. Everything became a full stop, suddenly all the chapters just ended. I was shocked, stunt and even depressed. I was bought down hard, and from then i've learnt that "not everythign would always happen in the way you would want it to be." And in order to make it happen, tremendous hardwork and effort is constantly needed. I looked at myself, and asked "what skills i would have after i graduate or finish my national service? " and the answer is onli " nothing" . And thus, I realised that it is time for me to live my life to the fullest and gain as much knowledge as possible so that it may benefit me in the future in someway or other.
From that, i deicided to go through some hardship. This is to train myself to be stronger and able push myself through difficult times. And I adopted a Chef's life for 2 years. The journey wasnt easy. You would work as long as 15 hours a day. Cooking, Preparation of ingredients, setting up stations and cleaning for closing of station . You would wake up at 7 to go work, setting up stations, cutting 10kg of chicken breast into slices, 1000 chilli into thin slices, and many more. This is a tough time as even if you're preparing those ingredients, customers would still be flowing in, you need to cook and attend to your ingredients and complete your task as fast as possible. During night, you would cook or baked non stop pizza and pasta. You could easily cook up to 200 plates a day and 100 pizza a day. After being sooo exhausted, you still need to wash down every part of the kitchen to make sure that it is clean. Almost eveyday would be the same routine. Even after being so tired, i still go for music courses, guitar + keyboard.
During that time, i was so busy that it was so hard to contact me... frens even scolded at me " Wa lao. If i were to call you for help, i would die already." lOL.. i agreed. Not to mention that i was still taking my diploma at that time ? lOl... the journey was so tough, occasionally i would be so mentally tired and wanted to give up. motivational talk doesnt affect me. Sometimes i would just shut of my mind and carry on what i have to do. This is beause i know, after all these, i would become a stronger man and feel safer with what i have and what i can do. Even if in the future i might not be working in these fields, still it is a life long skill that would benefit me.
After that, i enlisted. To become a diver, i was once a non swimmer to a drown proofer. This is one of the greatest obstacles i've overcomed, phobia of water. And now i can even use one breath to snorkle down into depth of 10 metre, or swim 25metres. I never imagined that i would clear tis obstacle in me.
In Conclusion, all skills i've learnt or acquired is not for showing off, i just wanna have more skills so that in the future i would not have to rely on someone to live or i could take care of someone special with all i have in me. To try my best to be the all - rounder for the special one.
Ever since the evolution ( Changes) i went through, from 2007 till now, Yes I've changed alot. 3 years ago, i was a boy who knew nothing, always believed or trying to use my so called "little brightness" (xiao Cong Ming) to help myself to go though all the problems i've encountered. During that time, i used to believe that with this little brightness in me i can do better than others. I never knew how cruel, tough and straightforward the society could be. During that time i always believe that things eventually work out by itself, what's there to worry about ?
But ever since "that " incident happens, all good life suddenly came to an end. Everything became a full stop, suddenly all the chapters just ended. I was shocked, stunt and even depressed. I was bought down hard, and from then i've learnt that "not everythign would always happen in the way you would want it to be." And in order to make it happen, tremendous hardwork and effort is constantly needed. I looked at myself, and asked "what skills i would have after i graduate or finish my national service? " and the answer is onli " nothing" . And thus, I realised that it is time for me to live my life to the fullest and gain as much knowledge as possible so that it may benefit me in the future in someway or other.
From that, i deicided to go through some hardship. This is to train myself to be stronger and able push myself through difficult times. And I adopted a Chef's life for 2 years. The journey wasnt easy. You would work as long as 15 hours a day. Cooking, Preparation of ingredients, setting up stations and cleaning for closing of station . You would wake up at 7 to go work, setting up stations, cutting 10kg of chicken breast into slices, 1000 chilli into thin slices, and many more. This is a tough time as even if you're preparing those ingredients, customers would still be flowing in, you need to cook and attend to your ingredients and complete your task as fast as possible. During night, you would cook or baked non stop pizza and pasta. You could easily cook up to 200 plates a day and 100 pizza a day. After being sooo exhausted, you still need to wash down every part of the kitchen to make sure that it is clean. Almost eveyday would be the same routine. Even after being so tired, i still go for music courses, guitar + keyboard.
During that time, i was so busy that it was so hard to contact me... frens even scolded at me " Wa lao. If i were to call you for help, i would die already." lOL.. i agreed. Not to mention that i was still taking my diploma at that time ? lOl... the journey was so tough, occasionally i would be so mentally tired and wanted to give up. motivational talk doesnt affect me. Sometimes i would just shut of my mind and carry on what i have to do. This is beause i know, after all these, i would become a stronger man and feel safer with what i have and what i can do. Even if in the future i might not be working in these fields, still it is a life long skill that would benefit me.
After that, i enlisted. To become a diver, i was once a non swimmer to a drown proofer. This is one of the greatest obstacles i've overcomed, phobia of water. And now i can even use one breath to snorkle down into depth of 10 metre, or swim 25metres. I never imagined that i would clear tis obstacle in me.
In Conclusion, all skills i've learnt or acquired is not for showing off, i just wanna have more skills so that in the future i would not have to rely on someone to live or i could take care of someone special with all i have in me. To try my best to be the all - rounder for the special one.
~ The Sweet Feeling Is in Me, Its Been quite awhile since i'm holding onto my phone.
J s
if i ain't got you|6:38 PM
Friday, August 27, 2010
Hmm... How long was it ? since i last blogged ? lOL.. i guess its been quite long already . well... what can i say... life is sooo busy with so many things happened around me lately, schedule is fully packed.. course just ended not long ago. was post to desired department.. although its busy but still i love the life there. there was no hierachy there, just normal life. i dont mind going home late just to enjoy this life... so ... i am ok.
I've somehow became a music manic already... when there is free time... i would just keep on practicing either keyboard or guitar. why ? this is because wouldn't it be nice when i wan play any song i want at anytime ? and even sing with it. the feeling of mixing with the mixing coming out from is undescribable. This is why.. i keep on perservering hard to play more songs. And there was once in my mind that i wanted to be a pub singer one day... lol... well... if i had a chance to be a part time... why not ? lOL...
hmmm... Ive alot to type here... but currently, i'm lost for words... guess i would stop here... i would try my best to continue tml i guess? lol.... hope i can...
I've somehow became a music manic already... when there is free time... i would just keep on practicing either keyboard or guitar. why ? this is because wouldn't it be nice when i wan play any song i want at anytime ? and even sing with it. the feeling of mixing with the mixing coming out from is undescribable. This is why.. i keep on perservering hard to play more songs. And there was once in my mind that i wanted to be a pub singer one day... lol... well... if i had a chance to be a part time... why not ? lOL...
hmmm... Ive alot to type here... but currently, i'm lost for words... guess i would stop here... i would try my best to continue tml i guess? lol.... hope i can...
if i ain't got you|10:44 PM
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